Wednesday, November 28, 2007♥
and i know the reason.
I get the question of why I dont study at home alot. And today clearly explains why.
I needed a break from all these exam shit. You know, when you are already containing the fact that your exams are not fantastic, you come home, wanting some break and get faced with more SHIT. And I know why I don't like staying at home.
It sucks when the people at home can't communicate with each other. And it sucks when you have a heck care mother who happily thinks everywhere is wonderland. It sucks when the other person's attitude sucks. And it sucks even more when you are a paranoid worry freak, worrying about every single thing when other people don't.
Imagine coming home and getting this instructions "eh, go get a laggauge from ah ma's place when you are free."
Ok, so when will I be free, when he is flying on tuesday? Like hello, you mean you only want to start packing on Monday. Its even stupider when another one came "actually why don't you call your daddy and ask him if he has this this this that." Like hello, I am having a f-ing exam and aren't the both of you 10 millions times freer than me to have done it ten thousand years ago??? I find it super ironic when your father is the last person you thought of borrowing stuff from after your mum goes bug all her friends. What has the world come to? Its ok when you 2 don't talk like other couples who gone separate ways. But you see him more than I do nowadays so its just insane when you have to get me to do such things!
I tell you ah, this mediator role between the mother and the brother aren't that frequent (thankfully!) but once or twice is enough to put me off because sometimes you don't want to be the only person who can see both their views when both of them can't see each other's views. Its super annoying, super irritating and I just want to f the both of them upside down at times.
I don't ask for much actually. I just want a shelter where I can seek comfort and warmth. Have someone to talk to when I get back home and need some peace. Have someone to ask me hows my day. And I willingly offer my help and I know when to. And NOT to throw me with nothing but shit. I really don't ask for much from them, you know. Cos there's nothing much I can ask for, reallly. Who can beat me in a dysfunctional home?
I just needed to rant. Topic close from now on.
I need to study.
