Thursday, December 20, 2007♥
Spending Time Alone
It has been almost 2 weeks since I get the luxury of sleeping at 12 and waking up at 12. Decided to spend time with myself, to reflect on things while doing the things I had to do in an exeptionally slow pace.
Drove down to Funan to get the IBM adaptor then to Ikea for a lil Christmas shopping then to NTUC for some grocery shopping. Traffic was bad due to the rain, accidents everywhere, parking was gross and queues at the cashier were freaking long. Other days, I would have felt impatient and cursing at the people in front to hurry and go. Today was exeptionally peaceful. Driving slowly with the windscreen wiper going from left to right and right to left. Waiting patiently and still smile at the person in front of me and the cashier when I had to wait for the cashier to painstakingly wrap up her 36 wine glasses one by one, before I can pay for my 2 items costing less than 10 dollars.
I finally feel that I am not just a rat in this stupid race for time.
I always lament on how things always happen, but guess I have to admit that I always allowed things to happen. I asked myself several times whether it was the right thing to do. People have been telling me that we can't change people into ourselves, so we need to accept people for who they are. And that since human beings are fundamentally different, we need to be accepting and tolerant towards one another. I will not beg to differ any of that.
Someone brought up a good point that friendships and love between a couple requires similar ingredients, for the same happily ever after goal. Exactly. But so many at times, it is easier to digest and accept something your other half tells you. When your friend tries to bring a similar point across, the response is different. Back to the point of human beings being fundamentally different, does that mean that a friend should just accept and tolerate and not voice things out like how your other half do? We know that in order to make a relationship work, we should voice out our happiness and work towards resolving it, so shouldn't it work for friendships too?
If you think that there's this bad habit about your boyfriend (or girlfriend for that matter) which you don't like, and you keep on tolerating and accepting it because you tell yourself thats just who he is, you will explode one day and tell him you can't stand him anymore and hence, Good Bye. But at least if you let him know, he will be conscious of that habit and might make an attempt to improve, even if he doesn't, you get your point across and hear his point and that will easily make it easier to tolerate, wouldn't it?
I am not trying to be a fairy, wanting to cast a spell and mould everyone into my ideal person. But I do want to work towards my happily ever after with the people I treasure and care about.
I know that I have to do it in a more tactful way. One can't afford too many painful lessons to learn the same mistake. I am glad that this isn't exactly a painful lesson, just an unpleasant reinforcement to the same lesson.
