Wednesday, November 28, 2007♥
and i know the reason.
I get the question of why I dont study at home alot. And today clearly explains why.
I needed a break from all these exam shit. You know, when you are already containing the fact that your exams are not fantastic, you come home, wanting some break and get faced with more SHIT. And I know why I don't like staying at home.
It sucks when the people at home can't communicate with each other. And it sucks when you have a heck care mother who happily thinks everywhere is wonderland. It sucks when the other person's attitude sucks. And it sucks even more when you are a paranoid worry freak, worrying about every single thing when other people don't.
Imagine coming home and getting this instructions "eh, go get a laggauge from ah ma's place when you are free."
Ok, so when will I be free, when he is flying on tuesday? Like hello, you mean you only want to start packing on Monday. Its even stupider when another one came "actually why don't you call your daddy and ask him if he has this this this that." Like hello, I am having a f-ing exam and aren't the both of you 10 millions times freer than me to have done it ten thousand years ago??? I find it super ironic when your father is the last person you thought of borrowing stuff from after your mum goes bug all her friends. What has the world come to? Its ok when you 2 don't talk like other couples who gone separate ways. But you see him more than I do nowadays so its just insane when you have to get me to do such things!
I tell you ah, this mediator role between the mother and the brother aren't that frequent (thankfully!) but once or twice is enough to put me off because sometimes you don't want to be the only person who can see both their views when both of them can't see each other's views. Its super annoying, super irritating and I just want to f the both of them upside down at times.
I don't ask for much actually. I just want a shelter where I can seek comfort and warmth. Have someone to talk to when I get back home and need some peace. Have someone to ask me hows my day. And I willingly offer my help and I know when to. And NOT to throw me with nothing but shit. I really don't ask for much from them, you know. Cos there's nothing much I can ask for, reallly. Who can beat me in a dysfunctional home?
I just needed to rant. Topic close from now on.
I need to study.
Monday, November 26, 2007♥
IT D WEEK
Oh well, here it is, week 15. And I am welcomed by a freaking headache in the morning, after an evening of a confused stomach which the owner doesn't know if its gastric, stomachache or what.
This headache is getting really annoying!
I think some of them has AMA in the afternoon. All the best, if you see this.
Side note, my horoscope on facebook says:
Gemini: Now's not the time to push yourself too hard or beat yourself up for not working harder. You're doing what you can, and you should be proud of that..
Then maybe I should just go sleep in the whole day.
All you NTU people who have finished, or are finishing. Please stay far far away!
PS: Hope that Fiona is fine and has the strength to tide through this. Sigh...
Wednesday, November 21, 2007♥
Despite having only one week break after exams before I start internship and another week ater internship before I start my mod term in Feb and no chance to leave the country, I am glad to have holiday plans filling up my calendar.
Looking forward to the FRASERS SUITES stay on 5-7 Dec. Confirm mambo on the first night. Hope its gonna be a whole load of partying and nonsense. Nice thing is Aunt Cindy and family will be staying there during that period and I can pop by their place as well! (: As well as the rugged chalet with the gang on 14-16 Dec. Woo hooo!
Totally looking forward to every single activity that can be happening after my 4 papers. BBQ with chanchos, going out with the boyfriend and letting him try his new camera on ME, shopping, and the list goes on. A part of my mind wants time to be the hare and another part of it wants it to be the turtle. argh!
1 Dec, 4.30 pm. But for now, its library from 10am to 11pm everyday. With breakfast, lunch and dinner breaks, and occasional jokes, chit chat and laughing session (with some EXCUSE ME CAN U ALL PLEASE! from some gui), some facebook, surfing, song sending etc.
Saturday, November 17, 2007♥
A long long time
Has been a long time since I slept so much. The feeling of waking up and knowing that you can continue sleeping felt so forgotten. Woke up to print cat report aat 930, went back to sleep while waiting for huifen to call, woke up to pass Huifen the report (shit she saw me in my ah ma-ish pj), went back to sleep, half an hour later, the postman came, pressing the bell and shouting "POSTMAN" non stop, woke up and greeted the postwoman in my ah ma-ish pj again. And went back to sleep. Another half an hour later, the boyfriend called, and no prize for guessing what I did after the call.
Told ya I will feel more relaxed after week 13 when all the projects are due.
Shall give myself a short break today. Finally finally changed my bedsheet and packed my wardrobe. I hate it when I can't find what I want among the big pile. Doesn't help when the mummy refused to help too.
Can't wait for evening to arrive. Has been too long since all of us got together! But for now, I'll just continuing bumming around and listen to emo songs. :)
Friday, November 09, 2007♥
Proper Update
Okay, enough of short random emo 2-liners, time for a proper post. But read at your own risk, gonna be quite boring.
The past week has been one of the worse. My sleeping hours since Monday night totalled up to 20, inclusive of a 9-hour on tuesday. So you do your math and find out how much I slept for the other 3 days. But the grossest thing was that the MPW survey thingy came out on the night I slept early! You dont want to know how angry I am.
It is not me to be careless and lose things but this particular week has been "happening" in its way. On Wednesday I woke up feeling pissed over the MPW thingy, and I thought it was a bad start already. Then I dropped my laptop while paying for Subway. ARGH! It landed on a corner and the corner is now cui. The CD drive shell came out but I manged to fix it back in but I haven't tested it though. Don't ask me how old is my laptop cos it will just make me feel worse. CHINA PRODUCT! ARGH. But ok, my own fault. Only consolation is that its free. Then at night I lost my all time favourite, versatile black cardigan. I have no idea how I dropped it cos I remembered (an unclear mind at 3am though) bringing it along before leaving the bench at SOB. But somehow, it disappeared. Brighter note, its a old cardigan, have been wearing it for at least 4 years and abit out of shape. But still.. ok nvm.
Yesterday, while driving, I saw a blue flash which I still can't be 100% sure that its not directed at me. I don't know how to describe the situation but I was a stoney driver, not in the right state of mind, so I will not be surprised if I beat a light without knowing it. It happened before, and boy, I'm glad I'm still here man. Hee hee. Anyway yup, its not me if you don't hear me mention it ever again. Then at holland v carpark this stupid uncle driver, driving an uncle car diao me cos I was in a opposite direction lane. HAHA. Ok i know its my fault again but I hate uncle drivers who always give us the kind of "wah lao, you stupid female driver" look. Come to think of it, I am glad Huijie, Nah, Yenfang, myself and jazzy baby reached home intact.
To sidetrack abit, I met my first road block while sending the temasek hall people back. Luckily with regards to drink driving, I'm still quite strict with myself. The lil session at coffee club was good. I am a sucker for 4 person combi and this combi seems perfect!
When I thought the worst was over, I went home to face an angsty and probably stressed brother while trying to print my CAT report. It was super gross but I don't want to talk about it now. What made it worse was this morning I found out from my prof that nothing was due today. Can you imagine how grossed out I felt? It was like ARGHHHH, so much for going through all those shit! Anyway, THANKS ZHICHENG! Sorry for waking you up too. Partners rocks! Hehehe. Claim your honey coffee from me when you see this. If not then too bad!! Muahhaa.
Nothing seemed to have gone right this week but I'm glad its coming to an end. TGIF! Most of the projects are more or less done and I can finally start studying proper. Week 13 is coming and it means the term is ending. This first-time-doing-5-modules, more project intensive than I expected semester is coming to and end! Last week of lessons and I hope I do not break my record cos I have not skipped a single class this semester. It might seem like a small thing, but DISCIPLINE ok!
Enough of school, a pic from mui's 21st last week:
Till then!
Thursday, November 08, 2007♥
For my fellow power gals out there:
"A woman is like a teabag; you never know her strength until you drop her in hot water."
This cat crap will end in 24++ hours time.
Monday, November 05, 2007♥
Closet Maroon 5 fan
Oh hi Week 12!
projects, bidding, studying, presentations, project, projects, projects.
Studying for exams can wait, perhaps.
It's beyond me, I cannot carry the weight of the heavy world
So goodnight, goodnight, goodnight, goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight, goodnight, goodnight
Goodnight, hope that things work out all right, yeah
Friday, November 02, 2007♥
When the going gets tough, the tough gets going.
Life is full of irony, confusion, distractions, and what not.
When everything's going against you, you are on the wrong lane?
I'm dying...
Why isn't there a F1 key to life like how you do it in Excel. Ok, I know, too much CAT.
My head is bursting. I'm outta this seminar room in 5 mins time.
Till the next emo post...
Till then!