Saturday, December 31, 2005♥
Happy New Year, Pull your ear
2006 is about 20 plus hours away.
And I'm actually tempted to do this resolution thingy again.
But I'm actually wondering if I should bother. Because every year (I think) I do it but by the end of the year, I can't remember what was the resolution I had stated for myself earlier on. I can't even remember what I wanted, how the hell would I know if I followed them.
But still, its like a trend thing and maybe I should just be a trend follower. Hah.
Here's the list.
1) Keep good track of my expenses.
I am someone who don't do that AT ALL and I know keeping track of expenses is a very good habit which I have to cultivate. Especially this month, I felt rather broke towards mid-month but I just can't figure out why. Yeah, I must start cultivating this habit. And at least I know where my money is going.
2) To be a good friend, still
I must say I am rather satisfied with myself this year for being there for my friends when they need me or a listening ear and stuff and I really want to continue doing that. If I haven't been there enough for certain people, I will work on it.
3) To slack less
I ain't very satisfied with the effort I put into school work last term. The excuse I give myself is that I am still warming up. Warm up time is over.
4) To remember my resolutions.
Ok, thats crap.
Probably time for some wishes too. Actually, every year on my birthday, I make a very simple wish which actually sums up everything I wanted to wish for.
I wish for happiness.
Yeah, I just wanna be happy. In everything I do, in whatever decisions I have to make, in whatever is gonna happen. I just wanna be happy.
As a child, I never wished for toys. I always wished for a happy family. My definition of a happy family is pretty simple. Just the 4 of us living harmoniously together. But it never came true. That was when I was a child but as I grew up, I understood that things weren't that simple. So I gave up and I told myself that I should just accept things the way it is and make the best out of it. And I now feel that it is actually better off this way. Imagine if my wish came true then. But Dad doesn't change, I wouldn't be happy. At least I can safely say that things are better the way it is now. To the very least, Mum and Dad are still friends who can talk. Instead of quarelling at home everyday if they are still together. I will probably go bonkers.
Come to think of it, I can still wish for a happy family. Probably in years to come, I will wish for a happy family with a loving husband and nice kids. Ok, but thats not for now.
Actually my point is: You don't always get what you want. But not getting what you want does not mean that you can't be happy. You can always find a way to make yourself happy.
I always believe that everything happens for a reason. If you ask why all the shitty things are happening to you, I will tell you that trials make you stronger. Its like a moth in a cocoon. In Lost, Larke told Charlie, "Struggle is nature's way of strengthening it (the moth)".
One day, the rain will stop and you will see sunshine. (As I type this, I am thinking of a friend. My first friend in KSS whom I know is going through rough patches in her life and feeling very negative about everything. I just wanna tell her that we all do care for her. Yes, all of us do. And I really want her to be more positive about life and one day, things will get better. Ok, gal? We are all here. Anytime.)
Ok, I digressed alot. Just full of thoughts after some bailey's.
Anyway, Happy 2006. May happiness and good health be with all of you.
With Love...
