Wednesday, December 28, 2005♥
Bluuoody
Thats how I am feeling for the past 2 days. Bluuoody is the word. Blue, moody and maybe erm, bloody.
But days like these allows me to reflect and think alot about things.
My Windows Media Player is playing 选择 now. A song which never fail to remind me of certain someone and certain things. The year is coming to an end. I'm so glad it is. Because this year, unlike for the past 3 years, I (ok, we) did not allow certain things to happen and I'm glad things are like that. He did not bring me on a rollercoaster of emotions. I'm just so so glad we can still be so friendsie (i made up my own word) despite all that happened. I'm just glad. And I'm just so glad that because of him, I got to know the gang. I got to know them and he gave them chances to be there for me so many times to console me, watch/hear me cry and that somehow, bonded us so much. Haha. I'm just grateful.
Well, I do know that sometimes people will talk about us and wonder if I'm really so cool about things. And even after reading this, some people might want to yak again but hell, like I care? Don't act like you know me better than I know myself.
I read someone's blog and the post on someone whom I thought I knew who she's refering to. I can't help but feel sad too. Well, I don't know how much truth there is in what I interpreted it to be, but still, she's the last person I thought she would be like that. Sigh. Perhaps I know when WE can be very very close again. Hah. Probably when everyone's single. [don't get me wrong!! I'm not asking or cursing all of you to break up] But at least I know that we are all making effort, even the slightest.
I'm having a craving. Not food this time. But a hug. Haha. A real hug, so no point clicking on my hug counter. (Although I'm quite shocked that I have more than a hundred hugs already. Thanks to whoever to 'hugged' me c= ) I want a real warm big hug. Haha. Xiaxue blogged about how nice it'd be to have a super high-tech fridge which can extend you a warm hug. Sounds absurb but come to think of it, its rather nice. Haha. But I bet a fridge can never beat human touch. You know a hug is actually the most consoling thing you can ever give to a sad, miserable, or blue friend? Its much more consoling than words. Next time when you are sad, miserable or moody, and when someone tries to tell you some big logics, ask that person to SHUT UP and ask for a hug instead. Provided you don't mind his/her body odour. Haha. And if you are gonna be the one doing the consoling, give that person a warm hug before saying anything. And after finishing your piece, give him/her another hug. Sounds good? But it is not hard to tell if your hug is sincere or not (at least, for me). So, rmb, the last and most important thing, be sincere.
